Wednesday, August 14, 2013
IT'S OKAY TO GRIEVE FOR YOUR OLD SELF!!
Berlena Spencer-Staton, Columnist, MSnewsChannel.com
I went to a conference in Florida last Thursday. Friday and Saturday were spent in meetings mostly. There were people there who usually attend every year and could see that I have progressed. I found myself not being as sociable as I usually am.
In a small setting and around my family and friends I am okay. They know my struggle with ms, and have seen me at worst and my best.
Our group went up front to have a photo taken. I was still at the table, but my husband had gone to the bathroom, nobody realized it, and I was left at the table looking for my husband to come so we could be a part of the picture. When he got back, it was over, and nobody in the group realized that we weren't there. My emotions were all over the place, and I felt like I wasn't even a part of the group.
I really got in a mood, and I was thinking about the times I have danced and socialized, and I so wanted it and missed it. I even took some of my frustration out on my husband. I told him I wasn't attending the conference next year. I finally left the party and went to my room. I had sort of a party of my own; pity party, and I just thought about the old me; dancing and socializing, and missing the old me. My husband is a very understanding person, and he understood how I was feeling.
Sunday morning was a different story. I felt better and understood that it is okay to grieve for my old self. I have a wonderful husband that puts up with me, my mood and my attitude, 2 wonderful sons, 2 daughter-in-laws, 2 grandsons and wonderful friends!! I am blessed!!!
Posted by MSnewsChanel.com.com at 7:51 PM